Now I Know Why...

Hmm, now i know why she was difficult to tell me that she love me or saying i love you to me. Apparently she does not love me wholeheartedly. While I love her more than anything. I gave her plenty of chances. Although she has hurting me and cheated me so many times, but i still gave her a chance. I never treat a girl the way i treat her. I never go out or dating with girls. I never love any girl the way i love her. But today, i stalker her ex boyfriend whom she did not admit that they are couples. But the evidence is clear now. She sent a wall post saying that she miss him. she said that she loves him. Thats what you call not couples ?! I was very sad when i read their comments. My heart crushed and shattered. Why must she cheat on me. I know that they have breakup now, but still, why must she lie to me before. She gave me hope and trust. Maybe it was old story and i should not pry the past. Is it my fault that i don't know how to treat a girl ? I don't have much experient in relationship. Maybe i should step back n began to lose hope in her. But i just want her to know that i love her very much. I love you NF.